I don't know why I do it. I've stopped doing it for long periods of time, but I always seem to come back. Few people care that I do it. Sometimes I don't care that I do it. I know that some people who see my results don't care that I do it and apparently don't think that I do it very well.
I write.
At least some of the time. And I don't really know why. I feel that somehow I can magically communicate with others in a way that's not possible in any other way. Both the Norse and the Ancient Egyptians felt that there was actual power, maybe even magic, in the written word. The Egyptians even thought part of your soul could be trapped in the written word. Perhaps they were right.
The last publisher who rejected my most recent novel is apparently no longer accepting new fiction writers. The current publisher where I have my novel submitted often asks for co-publishing fees of up to $3000 to publish new authors. 90% of all books submitted to publishers are rejected. Print-on-demand publishers cost a lot of money and receive no respect in the literary world, so it's hard to get your book into stores if you self-publish.
I write and I write and I write, but who is out there to read?
If a tree falls in the forest and nobody is around, does it make a sound?
If I write a fantastic story from my heart and bare my very soul in my written word, does it really make a difference is nobody ever reads it?
I don't know. I really don’t. But yet I continue to write and continue to be rejected by those who are considered to be experts in knowing what is good and what is garbage.
The spirit of the human soul is powerful under considerable adversity and extreme stress. To continue amidst such overwhelming rejection in doing something in which you really believe is an extremely hard thing to do. Sometimes I just want to quit. Again.
But if you really believe in something, you must continue. Besides, I know if I quit, I’ll be back to do it again. And again. And again. Even if no one is reading.
I write. Perhaps I need therapy. Perhaps my writing
is my therapy.